Not good news at all. :={

[lionkingcmsl]

First, thanks to the_gneech for making that post for me.

Right now we are waiting for the end. The doctors have said her various systems have shut down and it is only the oxygen keeping her alive. She has lasted this long so she could see me one last time.

She told my father, "Help!", and we know what that means. She wants release from her condition. :={

We have been told that she may not last the night.

Logically the lion understands what is happening, but emotionally the lion is a wreck. I am torn from wanting to totally breaking down and having to be the rock for my dad and family.

Fortunately the whole family is here and being our silly selves, which is what my mom would want.

My family and I thank you all for your prayers and good thoughts. I even told my mom that there are plenty of people that she doesn't even know that are pulling for her. I told her that she is important to them because she is important to me.

I have been told, in no uncertain terms, that if I "backslide" I will get beat within an inch of my life. :=3

The next post I make will probably be a post I'm dreading making. :={

Comments

[torakiyoshi.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, the hardest thing to do is to say goodbye. My cousins fought and fought to keep their mother alive, and she struggled so much against the pain of her illness to do so, but in her own way begged them to release her. It wasn't until they finally gave her permission that she passed on.

It's easy for me to say this; my mom is healthy and happy, and living well. But I, too, desperately fear the possibility of that changing someday, and I don't know how I will respond. My prayer is for your family's strength, and that you can rely on each other to all be firm rocks in this time. Your strength will come from each other, and from God.

[tilt-longtail.livejournal.com]

Oh eeeek , i hope this goes quick.
really, you know that is best for mom

[rapidtrabbit.livejournal.com]

Having lost my father recently in relative comfort and my mother nearly 4 yours ago in painful fashion, I know how tough these time must be for you. My prayers go out to you and yours. *hugs*

I wish you all strength....

[mammallamadevil.livejournal.com]

and, maybe find a place somewhere in the middle for some emotional release if you can...

MLD

[telbert.livejournal.com]

*hug* I understand how you feel, friend. My father passed last year around this time. The logical and emotional sides of me were at odds then as well. I will keep good thoughts for you and yours.

[u-t-tiger.livejournal.com]

You yourself are going to eventually need that emotional release.
I understand being strong for your mom, dad and family.
That being said, I would highly recommend; even if you have to get in your car and drive to and park somewhere private and allow yourself that emotional release to do so.
It may do you a world of good.

[mwalimu.livejournal.com]

It says a lot that you have many good memories of her. Don't regret that you get to make just a few more in her final hours. It's never easy when someone close to you has to let go of life. She and you are in my prayers.

[hallan.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[blacktigr.livejournal.com]

I wish there was more that we could do than stand with you from here, but know that we are here for you, no matter what.

[makovette.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to learn of this Don ,my best to you and your family. It is good you are there to be with her and your family.

Mako

[thefoxaroo.livejournal.com]

Likewise. Due to distance I wasn't able to be with my grandmother for her final hours. As painful as the experience will be for you, I have no doubt that your mother is thankful to you and to God that you were able to be with her.