About my last render
Mar. 19th, 2013 06:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lionkingcmslThere are times, like this morning, that I feel there is more to life than working and just existing. Yes, I do do other things, but this daily grind is wearing thin.
Not that I want to be "entitled" to things, but I want my life to be more fulfilling, for lack of a better term. I want to be more creative, but even in those endeavors I hit a "brick wall" and feel "meh".
I don't know if my age has anything to do with it, or if it is job burnout.
I am also getting more and more cynical about the world. I hate being cynical, but maybe my "youthful optimism" has been stripped away. I do not feel as enthusiastic as I once did. I see the world as more as a "Me first! Get out of my way! I want it, now!" type of place. I used to have great hopes for the human species, but I now see it as a species that will destroy it self with greed, hatred and self-centrism. I very much hope I am wrong about that, but the more I look the more I see. God help the human race.
Not that I want to be "entitled" to things, but I want my life to be more fulfilling, for lack of a better term. I want to be more creative, but even in those endeavors I hit a "brick wall" and feel "meh".
I don't know if my age has anything to do with it, or if it is job burnout.
I am also getting more and more cynical about the world. I hate being cynical, but maybe my "youthful optimism" has been stripped away. I do not feel as enthusiastic as I once did. I see the world as more as a "Me first! Get out of my way! I want it, now!" type of place. I used to have great hopes for the human species, but I now see it as a species that will destroy it self with greed, hatred and self-centrism. I very much hope I am wrong about that, but the more I look the more I see. God help the human race.
