lionkingcmsl | My leaving the SJ Forum

I want this to be seen so that all understand my reasons.

First of all I apologize to

the_gneech for making it feel as I didn't/don't respect him and for making it look like I tried to lay a "guilt bomb" at his feet.

Those were not my intentions at all. John, as I have said in that e-mail, I respect you immensely and I would never intentionally try to make someone feel guilty when my actions are my own.

As I have told John, I hate it when I screw up. I'm more forgiving toward other people's mistakes than I am of my own.

Do I think I'm perfect, or that I can be? In a word, NO! I am not perfect, nor can I ever hope to be, but I do hold myself to a higher set of standards than I should, I guess. Some have said that the standards I set are too high, damn near impossible at times. I have eased those standards a bit in some areas, but when it comes to me stating facts, I want my facts to be as precise as possible. It also really bothers me when people start citing facts that I used then I find out they, the facts, were wrong.

If I make a mistake I will be the first to apologize and admit the error. However, if this is not possible, or it has gotten to big for me to apologize to everyone involved, I beat myself up about it.

I'm sorry, but this is how I am "wired".

Yes, the post I did was not that big of a deal and John corrected my mis-statement, but it was after people started quoting me. now I'm not holding those people responsible for my actions. They had known me to be accurate before and thought, I guess, I had the "skinny" because I'm friends with John.

That's when I made my "Goodbye" post.

So why not put it behind me and return, especially after all that has been written?
First of all, I want to thank all for the replies. It does mean a lot to me, and you have touched me with your concern and well wishes. However, I try to be a man of my word. If I say I'm going to do something I try my damnest to do what I said I was going to do. I also do not like hypocrites and don't want to be seen as one or a drama queen; i.e. "I'm sorry to put you all through that. I'm back and everything is ok."

I'm sorry, but that may work with some people, but others get tired of hearing it. I said I'm leaving the board, so I have to abide by that decision.

I may return at sometime, but I don't think it will be in the foreseeable future, unless something drastic happens on the forum.

Yes, I will still read the forum, and of course I'll still read The Suburban Jungle.

I hope that this explains my feelings on what has transpired.